Tuesday, February 28, 2006

OK, 没关系

OK, 没关系

OK ,第一封信来了。

准确一点,应该是电邮。

先前对这所大学并不抱着太大的希望,所以失望也不大。

信上说它们得挽拒 7000 多人,是在安慰被拒的人吗?

“…the very high number of extraordinary candidates among our 8,000 applicants far exceeds the number of places we have in each program, and we are not able to admit many excellent candidates.”

没关系,还有四所大学。

Sunday, February 26, 2006

沁人

沁人

外头零下三度,我在浴缸泡了不算久的半小时热水澡,满室朦胧,在镜子上任意涂鸦,然后躺在绒垫里,边看着无聊的喜剧,边一口气吃了半罐的 Haagen Dazs 雪糕(上个月买了八罐,现在只剩一罐半)。一个人的空间来得不易,所以伦敦的周末夜晚我索性不外出,就一个人这样静静让星期六悄悄溜走,什么都不做,我很少这样奢侈地消耗时间,不过现在发现由此而来的幸福原来也可以很沁人……

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

True Joy in Life

True Joy in Life

I stumbled on this paragraph minutes ago again, a paragraph which I copied in my notebook years ago, and yet I still find so much strength in it.


“This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being thoroughly worn out before you are thrown on the scrap heap; the being a force of nature instead of a feverish selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy…

I am of the opinion that my life belongs to the whole community and as long as I live it is my privilege to do for it whatever I can…

I want to be thoroughly used up when I die. For the harder I work, the more I live. I rejoice in life for its own sake. Life is no brief candle to me. It’s a sort of splendid torch which I’ve got a hold of for the moment and I want to make it burn as brightly as possible. Before handing it on to future generations.”


~~ George Bernard Shaw in the Epistle Dedicatory to “Man and Superman” (1903).

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

This Saturday

This Saturday

I think one of the letters has arrived today. I received a card saying “Urgent Delivery Attempted Today,” from a private US delivery company, but nobody was at home to sign for it. Damn…

But I’ve rearranged a delivery on this Saturday. So I’ll know this Saturday… I’m praying.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

怎么了?

怎么了?

我究竟怎么了?
越来越懒。
午夜 12 点不到就自动掉头睡得不清不楚。
白天,眼睛离不开电脑,可是不是在读资料。
要不就盯住电视。

我冬眠太久了。
是时候清醒了。

贯彻始终,期待春天。

Friday, February 10, 2006

强迫症

强迫症

每天登录 HotmailYahooGmail 不少过 20 次。
没有。

每天登录大学的电邮户口不少过 20 次。
没有。

每天查看它们的网站不少过 20 次。
没有。

每天放学回家后等邮差捎信。
还是没有。

这样的日子,已经过了两个星期。

不断上网。
漫长等待。

我等到快要发疯了。

教授说,一定没问题。

可是,究竟还要让我等多久啊?

(强迫症,英文为 Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

Saturday, February 04, 2006

喜宴

喜宴

我们昨天晚上看完 Mamma Mia,在我们的老地方~~新五月花吃宵夜的时候,他终于对我们说了。

“我们要结婚了,在春天较迟的时候。”

这将是我第一次出席朋友的婚礼,也是在伦敦的第一次。

替你们高兴喔!