Thursday, March 30, 2006
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
房间堆了 15 盒 Marks & Spencer 的 Triple Chocolate Crunch （备考需要大量能量，每两天就可以吃完一盒），还不满足。结果，又跑去买了一盒买五送二的 Ben’s cookies 。我在想，在多三个月，就要和吃了三年的 Ben’s 和 Hampstead crepes 说再见，真的不知道如何是好。刚发现美国只有 Salt Lake City 有 Ben’s ，虽然如此，以后总不能像现在一样走路到 Ben’s 就可以吃到了。或许，我是应该选比较靠近 Ben’s 的大学。西岸比较靠近吧？
Friday, March 24, 2006
Saturday, March 18, 2006
I decided to take a break and turned on the TV after reading Brewin’s DR Theory of Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Coincidentally, Channel 4 was showing the documentary “The Falling Man” on the September 11th tragedy.
“There’s no blood, there’s no guts, it’s just a man falling,” a survivor said in response to Richard Drew’s photograph of the falling man, after which he broke down.
“It was more than grief,” the program described the psychological impact the trauma had on the survivors…
Then everything I had read just flood back… SAM and VAM, HPA axis, amygdala, LeDoux’s findings, flashbacks, EMDR, imaginal rescripting, Foa’s theory… I was surprisingly able to relate all these to the program…
But what’s the point?
I realise I am still extremely frustrated at not being able to do what I really want after finishing my psychology degree.
What’s the point of knowing how to carry out cognitive behaviour therapy? What’s the point of knowing that benzodiazepines can quell some PTSD symptoms? What’s the point of knowing the differences between Type I trauma and Type II trauma? What’s the point?
I feel like giving up…
Monday, March 13, 2006
More than 8 months
Time flies. This has been my desktop picture for more than 8 months.
I really really really miss Peru.
I'm looking forward to re-visiting it next year, or even this December if I do decide to go to the US for Masters. Hopefully plans will work out. :)
Classic shot at Machu Picchu
Saturday, March 11, 2006
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Two pieces of news came today.
The bad one came first, in the afternoon.
I got rejected from my 1st choice.
Obviously, I was disappointed the whole day.
Till 5 minutes ago.
Another email came from my 2nd choice, which I thought would be another bad one, since all I had received so far were bad news.
“You were accepted into the M.A. program.”
On second thought, could it be a typo?
I’ll wait for the official letter to come.